Thursday, August 24, 2017


Lately I've been feeling really sick - to say under the weather would be an understatement and I'm trying my damnedest to continue gym-ing it and lifting heavy but there are days where I literally am unable to lift my fat ass off the couch - okay, I might be exaggerating here but...
Yesterday I had gone to the hospital with a massive migraine, I literally felt like my head was going to explode off of my body and into the atmosphere. They ended up taking me in quickly and hooking me up to an IV with some drugs and fluids to re-hydrate as I was pretty dehydrated to begin with. These drugs hit me like a Mack truck - no word of a lie, I instantly felt like I was on cloud 500 - and not in a good way. I HATE when I feel like I'm not in control - and I definitely didn't feel in control yesterday. I had a panic attack of epic proportions, was legitimately a meat popsicle sitting on the bed in a creepy, dingy, dirty hospital room with doors slamming beside me which didn't help the migraine. The way the needle was shoved into my arm didn't allow me to lay down comfortably and not only that but my arm was hurting because the IV took a couple of tries to properly get in there. I look like a heroin addict today, my arm littered with "track marks". 
Nothing is worse for someone that has bad anxiety and in a middle of a panic attack then to know that you are completely out of your element and not in control when your vein is attached to some plastic bag that's hooked up behind you and the hospital is so ghetto that you don't have a call button for a nurse. 
Oh man, it was so bad. 

Thursday, August 17, 2017


I used to be so much more savvier in the kitchen...I don't know what's happened to me. It's not like I dislike cooking. I mean, I don't dislike eating! That's for sure...I guess all I can chalk it up to is plain ol' laziness...
No. That's completely untrue. 
It's the fact that my boyfriend is half-vegan {I say half-vegan because he does eat fish and doesn't eye up every single ingredient sometimes} and I feel like there are no "good" vegan recipes out there...and if there are...well, it costs an arm and a leg to make. Eating healthy IS expensive. To anyone that disagree's with me, I say; "HA!!!".

Because I've done grocery hauls in the past where I go junkie at $75 let's say? To my latest expedition which cost me $175 for all healthy foods. For chrissakes, salmon is $40 for a strip and that's farmed!! 
I really am trying though to utilize all that it is that we have in our fridge and sometimes it just ends up being a wrap with peanut un-fun is that??? 
So my mission for this month - and the month of September - is to try at LEAST one new recipe a week. At least one! 

So I've been perusing a lot of web sites and cookbooks to see if I can get inspired...and I just recently stumbled upon quite a few "Buddha Bowl" recipes.

Now...what is a Buddha Bowl exactly, you may ask? 

A Buddha Bowl {or otherwise known as a macronutrient bowl} is a deep-dish bowl that's jam-packed with veggies, grains and plant proteins and are generally vegan - but let's not get ourselves confused, there are no hard and fast recipes for Buddha Bowls but rather we are to look at this dinner time bonanaza as a formula. You can basically swap out whatever you want in these bowls to your liking and even add animal-based protein if you'd like. 
I am contemplating on trying my hand at a Buddha Bowl tonight before settling in to a Schitt's Creek marathon {have I ever mentioned that I LOVE that show?!} but before I go on I want to share a few recipes that looks absolutely, I probably won't follow this one to a T but is giving me some pretty exciting ideas. So click on the images below which will take you to their sites with the recipes! I need to go out and find some gorgeous deep-dish bowls! 

Tuesday, August 15, 2017


My new thinking spot...Long Point, Ontario.
Lately I've been seriously contemplating which direction I want my life to go. It's hard when you feel stuck and like nothing seems to be going your way. I completely understand though that if you allow yourself to stay stuck in patterns of negative thinking than it's going to be next to impossible to get yourself out of that rut if you don't help yourself first...and think positive. 
Seems simple enough, I'm sure...but it isn't. It's super hard when you've been traversing through this {quite honestly} fantastic life with a proverbial thundercloud above your head...mind you, I love thunderclouds so not sure if that was a good comparison. Lol. 
An angry thundercloud? I don't know...basically, what I am trying to get at is that it's important to try and be a HAPPY {thundercloud} person. That takes work! You would think it doesn't, but it does! If you don't do anything in life, then of course you're going to feel stuck and stagnant. 
I am so many opportunities that lay at my feet but I choose to step over them a lot of the time - and instead of grasping at those opportunities I can easily sit and mope and say to myself {and out loud to anyone who can hear -- my poor dogs and Travis} that "Woe is me, how can nothing go right? Why do I feel stuck? Why does life suck? Why do I suck? Why can't things go my way?" 
It's because I'm not changing anything!

Wednesday, August 2, 2017


There is something about Fall that has me experience all kinds of feels! 
It's electrifying. 
To me honestly is. 
I just LOVE the season. I love everything about it. I love the dark and ominous clouds set against a clear blue sky and the crisp air - the smell of rotting leaves is a scent you can't compare and although it sounds gross - rotting - it's strangely intoxicating...sort of like rotten apples when you're in an orchard...a waft of liquor in the air.
Even the sounds of Fall..mainly (and honestly the only thing I can think of, LOL) the sound of those dead crunching leaves beneath your brand new Fall boots. 
Fall is a warm hug. It's family gatherings and delicious food. It's fruits in the oven and cinnamon candles. It's caramel candles and pumpkin plug-ins. It's pastry's and road trips.
It's hiking and hot coffee's. It's light jackets and the sun beating down on your face. It's a relief. 

I just love it.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017


So I was doing not too bad the last few weeks with my eating and exercsign (sorta - I am still trying to hone in the eating). I mean, during the week I do 110% and than oftentimes I crack on the weekends and it just messes me up. At least I didn't do *that* bad on the weekend that I eventually threw all caution to the wind..but...what a shit feeling. 
Why do I keep doing this to myself when it makes me end up feeling like total shit?? 
Anyways, I digress..
That is a subject for another post.

Well, I am |__| <-- this close to my vacation. Dear Lord do I ever need one. I am definitely looking forward to hitting the beach and spending time with family. Lucky Travis gets 2 weeks - where I only get one but I am not going to complain. I will take what I can get at this point. I need some total R&R...and I am hoping this vacation does just that - which I am sure it will.
Regardless I plan on spending most of my time on the beach reading a myriad of different books - which segues into my post - book loooooove. 

Fed & Fit: A 28 Day Food & Fitness Plan to Jump-Start Your Life with over 175 Squeaky-Clean Paleo Recipes by Cassy Joy Garcia - $38.56 CAD

I know - this book is a little pricey - but if you're a newbie when it comes to health and fitness, food and nutrition I think this book would be just right for you. I am interested in it because individuals that are fans of the Whole 30 rave about this book as well - I like the fact too that they hit upon how important it is for you to have the right mindset when it comes to losing weight and feeling good about yourself. Finally - individuals are starting to realize that you need to approach this entire thing holistically if you want it to work! 

Wednesday, June 21, 2017


So it's been a few weeks since I last ate pasta and I am dyyyyying for some. Seriously. 
I haven't been thinking THAT often about it but for whatever reason last night I just imagined sitting down to a huge bowl of piping hot pasta with ooey gooey cheese and I nearly passed out from the craving. LOL! With that being said, and as much as I would LOVE to have some, I'm not sure if I am ready for my pasta cheat meal just yet. But then again, you never know. I used to be so good with cheat meals...just once a week...but lately if I have one? Then I just go on a free-for-all. Not good for the waistline, naturally.
With that being said, I need something semi-healthy but decadant to tie me over...and I still haven't tried those damn protein pancakes. STILL!!! 
But I did, however, make a conscious first step and that was to go out and buy some maple syrup (low sugar kind, naturally). least I am on my way! 
Anyways, enough blabbing on my part. I am going to share a delicious recipe with you all because I haven't done that in a LONG time, and not much on this blog at all.
I am obsessed with the blog "Pinch of Yum".  
Girl has so many mouth-watering recipes on this site that I can't even handle it! 
Make sure you go over there and sign up for the e-newsletter - where you get a little free ebook of her top 25 recipes. 

Like...look at all that mouth-wateringness in one snapshot. Ugh! SO YUMMY!

Tuesday, June 20, 2017


Remember my post from...well...a few posts ago? Where I said...PREPARATION IS KEY! 
Well...I haven't been prepared at all. 
Okay - well, I have been prepared...but not 100% entirely for myself I've been focusing a lot of the meal prepping for Travis and for myself? Well, I hope for the best.
I must confess though - I haven't lost a,t he last 2 weeks I've been eating SO well and definitely under my calories and exercising my butt off and this morning I stepped on the scale and gained 3 pounds, what gives?? It's really infuriating, not going to lie. 
I think part of the problem is that I'm not eating enough? I'm not sure. I wish that I really tracked my weight lost in the past so that I would know what it was that I was doing that I looked so great then...then again when I'm looking at past photos' I also see ones like this one: